What Happens When You Jump

Every feeling I have I want to feel now, as it appears.
For who knows?
It could be this feeling is of dying.
I could be dying.
And I know I want to be aware when I die.
Therefore I want to feel every feeling as it occurs.

Winter 2006
Though I had gotten up at four for the procession of the Virgin of Guadelupe, I had so much going on inside me, and it felt like too much; more than I could handle, too scary, uncomfortable and  painful to look at and work through. I got into bed and journaled for a few [...]