What Happens When You Jump

I remember in Biology class in college learning about blue green algaes, that they were the first food on earth and that they contain the most energy directly from the sun. I remember learning about sun energy and how when we eat, we are really eating sun energy. The further away from the direct source, [...]

Every feeling I have I want to feel now, as it appears.
For who knows?
It could be this feeling is of dying.
I could be dying.
And I know I want to be aware when I die.
Therefore I want to feel every feeling as it occurs.

Winter 2008
I have been broken and cracked. Now I am being pulvarized into small pieces which hopefully will make it impossible for me to reconstruct myself as I was, as I have been.

Life is a trick. There’s this illusion of Am-ness which is necessary somehow. Through this portal, our physicality and essences, we develop stories, egos, beliefs and the challenges or suffering that ultimately calls us to reach outside of ourselves and transcend. Illusion and the necessary story accumulated through this give a sense of linear time.
Somehow.
And [...]

One thing I know is: I know nothing. I love ironies like this. When I was a teen I had another one: There is one Truth. That one Truth of course, is that there is one truth! Cosmic humor through logic