Rushing to the Divine
I recently had a slow day. I’ve been running around so busily lately, and my meditation practice is helping me to be able to see what my mind does. On this slow day, I didn’t strive to get things done, to accomplish, to move ahead. I didn’t hurry. I took my time with each small task and consciously let the action be its own reason or value.
I realized how I am all the time rushing, trying to get enough done to be adequate for That-which-gave-me-life and is surely watching me live. On this day, I saw that in rushing to the Divine I am actually moving further from It. When I slowed all the way down and didn’t have goals or stories about what “doing enough” is and would get me, I felt closer to the experience I want, and actually on the track where Divine hangs out.
What a strange and ironic realization. If being in conscious, living, loving relationship with the Divine is my main goal, then what does this say for how I operate habitually?
Does it mean I should stop doing all those activities? My hunch is that it is more about how I do, not what I do. What would it look like to do the same actions, but with an attitude of “there’s nothing more important than what is in front of me right now”?
love this!!!
The irony is seeing that in being silent…and still…we learn how to get out of the way. To ‘be’ right where you are…and it only hits you…the meaning of it all when you allow yourself to experience it. Then, you want to realize ‘you get it’ but you want to put off realizing the moment…just to prolong experiencing ‘it.’ This…right now…is one of those moments. : )
I’m reading Rumi poems right now, and what you write about is what he wrote about — being totally absorbed in the present moment is when we are closest to the Divine.